Tread Softly Please.

I was recently involved in a situation that had me, well, at best - confused, there is so much else I could add but...

Without going into detail the one thing I learned from this situation is my "bull in a China Shop" approach to life just doesn't work. Not for this. Not for much really.

I'm impulsive by nature, I jump in with both feet and with the enthusiasm of a Kardashian with a new reality TV show!  (yes I just made that reference).  What I found out is it doesn't work all the time, or even most of the time.  People freak out! I freak people out!  I don't mean too, it just kind of happens.

I need to learn to tread softly so I don't spook the horses.  I need to learn that not everyone travels at the break-neck speed I do...I've learned this.  I've applied the breaks and am coasting along at a snails pace.  Is it driving me nuts? You bet! Will I live? Hell yes!  I may dash around like Flash, but I have the patients of a saint and I know that good things come to those who wait.  I also believe that great things come to those who work hard for them!  And some things are as well worth waiting for as working for!

I know who I am and I know my faults.  Thus far they haven't really been an issue and when they are, I'm fine with making adjustments, it's all part of being the absolute best person I can be.  Being self aware is the best way to be.  In the long run these little tweaks help me realise who I want to be and how I want people to see me. 

I've been asked in the past and recently too, if I'm for real?  Well, I wake up breathing every morning so I think so...cut me, I bleed... hurt me I feel pain...I think that's a good indication I'm real.  I know that's not necessarily the meaning of the question but it's a really hard question to answer.  Am I too good to be true? No, not at all, I'm just unique.  We are a rare breed, those of us who see the best in everyone, even those who are perceived as undeserving.  Or, at least we try. ;) 

I believe from the bottom of my heart we are all capable of being the best version of our selves and if it means making changes to who we are and how we view, well pretty much anything we can be "too good to be true" because the truth is most people aren't.  BUT, it has to come from within.  We cannot force someone to change to fit our ideal, we can only change our perceived ideal.  Only WE can change ourselves!  We can't change others that's impossible.  We can set an example to be followed but it always comes down to personal choice.  We can't judge others for their choice to change or not, that's not our right or any of our business. 

If I make adjustments to the way I see things or how I interact with others it's because I chose to, not because I was forced to.  It's because I feel deeply it's the best for not only me but anyone else involved.  Sometimes these changes occur instantaneously sometimes they take time, either way when change is necessary for me, change happens.  I'm highly adaptable that way.

With all this being said...clarified...cleared up...if a soft touch is what's required, that's what I'll do. No problem! I just hope it doesn't take me so long to realise it next time.

That's, how I see it.
Tammy.